What I Miss

I miss being married and having someone that I know is always going to be by my side. I miss that feeling of knowing I am not alone in this world. I know that God is with me, but even He said after He created Adam that it is not good for man to be alone. I am not nearly as alone as Adam was because there are a few billion people in this world now, but I really believe that a woman completes a man. I know that there are many who might disagree with me, but I believe that is the reason He created woman. We can learn so much about what our relationship with God should be like by comparing a marriage relationship to it. We can also learn better how we should treat each other in a marriage by looking at how Jesus loved us. If a husband is not loving his wife the way that Jesus loves the church, there is no real reason for her to love and submit to him as the head of the house. Looking back at my failed marriage, I think there were times when I did not show the love for my wife that Jesus shows for the church. Maybe that was my biggest mistake.

I miss that close friendship and love that I once had. I miss being in my son's life every day and I miss being there for my step-daughter too. Divorce causes more trouble than it fixes most of the time and yet, it is sometimes unavoidable too. As a Christian, I know that I did all I could think of to save my marriage and I also know I made mistakes. I also know that I will never again have the chance to try again with her. So although I miss that relationship, I must learn to not look back. I must move on and search for someone new. Do I miss my ex-wife? I think I miss her to some degree, but I do not think she is the same person I was in love with. I just need to look ahead and do my best to improve myself every day. I will take one day at a time and stay faithful to God.